Always Yours
2014 · Zack Smith
I’ve been trying so hard to prove that I am everything that you deserve
I’ve been trying so hard but I can’t even fool myself anymore
I’ve been trying to scale the wall inside; it’s high, it’s too high to climb
I’m giving up, because you don’t
I’ve fought for so long now
For you to take me back again
I lost your love some time ago
But I’m finding out now
It is your love that fights for me
I was always yours
I’ve been hauling the weight of all my faults everywhere I’m supposed to be
Can’t get through the door most times with a two-ton load no one can see
I’m not enough
Can’t leave 'em behind; I’ve got to sort 'em out, swore I’d make them alright
I’m not enough; I’m giving up now
I’ve fought for so long now
For you to take me back again
I lost your love some time ago
But I’m finding out now
I cannot tempt your love to leave
I was always yours, yours, yours, yours
When I can’t hide any longer
You invite me in to shelter
And we both know I’m nothing like you
And that’s the thing
That’s the thing that hurts the most
My favorite dreams are nightmares
In the dead of the night you wait there
My own supply of air ran empty long ago
I can’t feel my arms agains the weight of shame
It crushes my soul
But, oh! I want to make believe
I’m fine on my own
But I’m not enough
I’m not enough like you
I’m not enough like you are
